Is this really happening?

It was approaching the end of November and I was beginning to wonder when my monthly cycles would return. I kept waiting week to week, just waiting to feel like I was myself again so I could start on a clean slate and get back into my normal lifestyle. As the waiting continued, I began wondering if perhaps I was still pregnant or if somehow I could be pregnant again with a new pregnancy. I figured there was no way, that there could already be a new pregnancy. So, I took a test.....

And....., were pregnant. Wow, I couldn't believe it. It's hard for me to get excited about pregnancy anymore, so I think I was more scared then anything and disappointed because I knew the process and what was going to happen. All I wanted was to be back to my normal self and continue to recover emotionally from everything that we had been through. I called my fertility specialist and they got me in to confirm the pregnancy. So, the process of the fourth pregnancy began.....